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this year is such a hectic year.

Os,canoeing,church.
plus all the unwanted stuff.
i feel so drained.
mentally and psysically.
like my mind does not have the space to think abt things anymore.
the time to just sit down and dream.
nowadays,
recess is spent asking others to get food for me up to class,
while i complete my homework.
after school is spent going for remedial,home.
no more basketball or roaming town.
i'm living life as if its a mundane thing.
even weekends are not spared.
sat there's training and haf to rush down for tuition after that.
after that i'd be too tired to do all the homework etc.
on sunday, go to church.
the next part of the day would be spent doing homework till eleven.
i find it so..sick.

i've nothing to look forward to each day,
too tired to think of anything,
burned out.
i feel as if i'm a machine without rest.
i've living my life like a robot.

these days,
i do not smile as much as before,
laugh as madly as last time,
or simply,
just being myself.

sometimes,
i wished i was the one
you were talking abt anyway.